A day outside. A bad day outside.

Today I had an ‘important exam’ so I had to go outside. Outside, where there are people. Real people. Not the virtual world but actual crowd of living organisms, all kinds of them.

 

So, once you’re outside, whether you like it or not, you need some basic dodging-long-conversations/maneuvering-your-way-through-limited-words skills. And, I must say that I’m pretty good at it. I don’t even get noticed while doing so (or so goes my vivid imagination that i don’t). But, today was different.
Well, I am standing there in front of the building because going inside would’ve made me even more nervous minding my own business, juggling between the useless umbrella, (it has been raining crazy like a freaking sea decided to evaporate and come down all at once) my scarf, my bag and glasses, so yeah, I was quite occupied. And that is when it happened…my umbrella ‘touched’ another girl’s umbrella.  Just a slight poke. No holes. No eye damage. No i-choose-you drama…

“Watch what you’re doing?” , she said, in one of the most cruelest tones I’ve ever been talked to. I said my apologies, stared at her for a while then decided to look away.

Being Martin Freeman would’ve helped but I didn’t have the time to brew a polyjuice potion

 

I understand that she might have been flustered and confused because of the exam but…WHY ARE PEOPLE SO IMPULSIVE?! As I said, it was not on purpose or anything…but anyway when things like these happen I tend to get extremely self-conscious. My thoughts get all messed up. My nervousness doubles. And the lingering anxiety kicks in.

It was already cold, and (to my utter disbelief) I stared shaking!?

Twenty minutes of disarrayed thoughts, tangled with loss of courage to move. I am not sure what happened. Maybe I was out after a long time, that’s why. It was strange and I feel uncomfortable even thinking about it.

After that I went in the building to find the room and there I saw the girl again, and guess what? She was fighting with the invigilator.

“This is not the first time I am here for an exam!” 

“You don’t tell me the rules!” 

“I know what I have to do!”

She was shouting. The examiner was looking at her with patience. But, she wouldn’t stop.

 

Hah! I had had enough of her already…

So I…

found the computer with my serial number on it, sat down on the seat, and closed my eyes for the next five minutes…relieved that I did not get on her bad side.

 

Don’t worry you’ve read all of that for this fabulous song.

Okay. Bye. xx

I don’t understand how to end these…”Dimecdotes” (Dim cause that’s the first three letters of my name (tragic, i know), and they might actually be dim-anecdotes so…yeah…look forward to more of these! Please.)

I’d love to hear if you have had any recent going-outside-after-a-long-time issues. Please share! ❤

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20 comments

  1. Being out can be fun as well,
    you know…
    Like When you got a chance to leave soft doses of some tensed fists on annoying faces 😎 lol

    hey, its no fun if any of that face is yours btw
    so dont forget to dodge or atleast, learn kung fu 😀 oh, running away helps all the time!

    Have fun! Hey….. you spend way too much time behind closed doors! 🙂

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    1. HAHAHA! Oh my! ‘hey, its no fun if any of that face is yours btw’ got me laughing so hard. I am good at running away. 😀
      It’s true though, I don’t go out much but that’s just the way I have always been. But, it’s definitely is enjoyable to do that once in a while…except the day I talked about above.
      Thanks for the good laugh. You’re fabulous! ❤ 🙂

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  2. I have totally been there in my 64 years! Many times…and, more importantly, I have survived! and thrived! And, YOU can too! I know how frightening it can be to go OUT THERE INTO THE WORLD! I think I do have a bit of impulsiveness in me, and though it probably has caused me to suffer from “foot and mouth” (open mouth, insert foot) disease on occasion, it served to throw me out among the beasts and demons…and also, has given me the opportunity to meet some very wonderful and kind people. They are out there—and they will find you! You are so gentle…I know you are! And, I imagine, extremely sensitive to others and their feelings–and damn, WHY can’t others be as nice to us?!!! Sometimes I would wonder to myself, “How the hell did I get here?! and “How did I survive THAT one!”
    I am sorry for the rude umbrella “lady”—WOW! She has a lot of anger inside of her. I taught 26 years in this one school district and being a Reading Specialist, I would travel through the elementary and middle schools…the movement kept me alive and in a job! I was reminded of this one particular teacher when I read your umbrella incident. I suffered immensely whenever I was in the same meeting with her, of which, she usually chaired! or her classroom—and totally pitied her students!
    You are unique! You have a sensitive and kind heart, and “Dim” is NOT a negative …it means you are kinder than most…you are diminutive (I would underline the “dim” if I could!) in your movement…so quietly you move with your passion and brilliance and accomplish a great deal!
    Have a great day!
    I so appreciate your presence on my blog!
    Okay, I am dying to know what the exam was about and how did you do? I know you are an engineer, so I am confident you did smashingly well!
    By the way, I think you have a great sense of humor! Love your additions of the tidbits from films! (do they still call them “films?”) I love Sherlock too! LOL…I have to catch-up on the episodes I missed this year.
    Blessings and continue going out to be found! There are good people in this world! and they will find you!

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    1. Aw, I sincerely thank you for the encouragement your comments provide me. It’s like talking to someone who cares enough to give a direction to my thoughts, and that too to the best of her abilities. I agree that good people will find you, they do but at times i tend to push them away…I will keep on trying not to do so. 🙂
      Wow, you must’ve loved your job, i quite like the sound of a Reading Specialist, makes me want to meet you! *I am not a creep, I repeat not-a-creep* 😀
      I appreciate you finding a positive meaning to Dim, makes me feel at ease…by the way my name is Dimple (and you can stop smiling/laughing, I know you are) 😛
      As I said before, I work on extreme emotions, and this erratic nature is quite a pain for me and everyone who interacts with me on a daily basis..i can be over-sensitive and the next minute I would be mocking someone…ehehe *wipes off the sweaty forehead*
      Oh, and my sense of humour, haha, I love how sad it is and how I can make myself laugh…you NEED to catch up with Sherlock and then tell me how you liked it! It is brilliant. :’)
      My exam was alright, it was for an IT job in a Bank…it basically depends on how others did because it goes through the cut-off system procedure…wish me luck!
      I always love talking to you and visiting your blog, there is always so much to learn from you. Thank you for always taking out time for me, I feel so happy after reading your comments that I go all asdfghjklqeifkgdoakxlabax –> equates to happy!

      Lots of love ❤
      Light (Yes, that's my WordPress name) 😉

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  3. I am not agoraphobic but I am slightly autistic so I’m usually a beat or two behind in social situations. Lately I’ve decided that depression must look really good on me because I’ve been wearing that most days too. No words of wisdom, no magic pills just a wish that your day bodes no ill. Thanks for reading my blog. I’m glad you enjoyed today’s poem.

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    1. It’s the same with me, depression is probably something I have started to live on rather than live with.
      Your wish is enough for me. Thanks for reading and taking the time to comment. I really liked today’s poem and I eagerly look forward to more! 🙂

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  4. Great post! that can be quite daunting wen people impulsively spit something startling to you…99.9% time it is never about you but where they are coming from (bad day,week, month, years) it rarely rarely about you. You survived it, wrote about it and probably got some perspective on it plus a few chuckles. Thanks for sharing, Oliana

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    1. Thank you for the read the comment!
      Hmm, now that you mention…you’re right about how behaviour mostly reflects a person’s life or prior experience with other people. It is the same way with me so of course it is with others. I’ve often been told to stifle my immediate reactions/impulse/opinions (sometimes) and maybe that is why I couldn’t come up with a “That was by mistake.” which probably I should should’ve…but thanks for pointing out this perspective. For some reason I feel a little more, at ease now. 🙂

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